Ministry...sometimes there are no words.

Many times over the past month I have thought of many different things that I should blog about but when it came down to writting I often could never put into to words what I was feeling so I just said forget it. Let me explain this past month of my life I have been doing a lot of ministry, more than a normal month because of retreats and ski trips, and I have dealt with a lot of different and hard things and now that it is all done I can relax a little bit but I am so tired that I am not even sure I can relax, I have learned so much and I have felt so many different emotions this past month that it is almost impossiable to just sit and not process or think about it, especially now that it is all done.

I am learning how to be a minister to a hurting world, to a world that is unfair and often leaves teens feeling unimportant, I am ministering in a world that is against me, spending one weekend teaching 8th graders that sex is a gift from God and that it is only meant for marriage for a reason doesn't make up for the endless hours and days of the media and culture telling them that sex is no big deal, and if it feels good, do it. It is hard, it is hard to know the root of peoples pain, and to hurt along side with them, it is hard to know that you can't fix there pain, that sometimes all you can do is listen and pray. But thank God that he is in control, which is something we all know but I think it is something that we forget. and Thank God that he has overcome this world and that he is bigger than this world. These are promises that I have always known in my head and in my heart but they have taken on new meaning, because I have to believe it with all of my heart because it is the only thing that gives me hope somedays, and sometimes it is the only hope I can offer to my youth.

Ministry is hard, and people have hard lives, but ministry is fufulling and joyful, and it is a blessing to get to be a part of so many peoples families. I wouldn't trade my job for anything, and there is nothing else I would rather do and I mean that with my whole heart...but somedays at the end of the day I am glad that God hears prayers that have no words but have heart.